The subconscious mentality of a fat person as written by a reformed fat…
I cannot park in that small parking bay-there won’t be enough space for me to get out of my car.
When in a crowed shopping mall – I will automatically give a wider bit of way because my idea of how large I actually am is exaggerated.
When dishing up food – I will dish up more for myself than I actually need because my idea of how much food I need is skewed.
When cooking for guests – I will always make more than necessary because I believe everyone eats the same amount of food as I do.
When trying on clothing – I will unconsciously pick sizes too large for me because that is how large I think I am.
When buying a handbag – I will get the largest one there. Not because I know that at least then it is in proportion to my body but actually because my brain tells me to go large – because I am fat.
When buying jewellery – I will go for the largest, chunkiest pieces because surely I can’t possibly wear anything fine and delicate as it will look funny.
You get the idea ne?
So every day, I make a conscious effort to think like a thin person and I attempt to rewire my brain.
So far I have gotten the following …
My portions are automatically smaller-and instead of having 2 potatoes because I am hungry, I have 1 plus a tomato. Or 3. I love tomatoes.
When faced with a block of oh so yummy chocolate – I have 1 or 2 blocks. Because, actually, that is all I really wanted in the first place.
When buying clothing – I purposefully take a size smaller than I think I am. And 9 times out of 10 – it fits.
When parking – I don’t skip the parking bay squashed in between two idiots in SUV’s who think the demarcated lines should be half a millimeter from their tyres because I don’t think I will be able to get out of my car. I channel thin person and I contort but I can get out.
When faced with a slightly open sliding door (open enough for a thin person) – I don’t automatically make it wider. I fit. Because I do.
You get the idea ne?
Change the way you see things.
Change your reality.
Rewire your brain.
Just do it.