Once upon a time a little girl that was born 9 years too late. She was an oopsie.
She was born into an angry family.
A mother that was so insecure she was jealous of her eldest daughter’s relationship with her father. A father that was not strong enough to stand up to his wife. A physically broken brother. An emotionally shut down sister.
She grew up ignored. Alone. Isolated.
She taught herself to read and by grade 1 was arguing with her teacher about whether Little Women was appropriate reading material or not.
She taught herself to be. To be loved and wanted in a world that only existed for her.
In her mind. In her soul.
A world filled with loyalty and honour and friends and love and hugs and daring bravery.
A world filled with violent blue and black skies and creatures filled with humour and courage.
A world the complete opposite of reality.
Reality was lonely.
Filled with fear and timidness and no voice.
No life and no soul.
Reality was blocked out – to this day, she does not remember it. She refuses to remember it. It was not physical. Nor was it sexual. It was just pure neglect. Emotional. And something more. Something there is no name for. It was… non existence.
She played with the animals on the farm. She climbed the trees. She roamed the day and the night and no one saw her.
She grew a bit wild. And her teachers didn’t care. They punished her for being smart. They punished her for being different.
She roamed the wild places, and filled it with safety. The safety of intangible. The safety of what her mind could control.
And one day, she imagined freedom. And it was powerful and dark and scary and life and soul and blue and black and purple and swirling mist and love.
It was Unicorn.
His name was Malachai.
His name is Malachai.
And he is her memory of life.
Her memory of living.
And he took her from the dark places and showed her the light in her soul.
He lived the fear with her. He lived the tears with her. And he was where she kept her sanity.
He is where she keeps her sanity.
She etched him on her body, when she was old enough.
And she keeps his name, his courage, his shadow close.
Because he is life to her.
He is her.